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Monthly Archives: December 2018
Video Game Review: Butterfly Soup
Today’s entertainment review is going to be on the visual novel “Butterfly Soup”!
Short:
High-class memery and relatable gay asian girls playing baseball? It’s already A+++.
Not-as-short:
This is literally my favorite thing in the world at a time when queer Asians just don’t exist in media. Let’s all bow down to our Lord Brianna Lei for creating this masterpiece.
First of all, the humor is such high quality! I mean, I don’t know about other people, but I found it freaking hilarious. Second of all, I am particularly attached to this game because it hits so close to everything I even though I don’t even like baseball. Being a queer Asian girl in the Bay Area finding something with pretty much this precise demographic that’s never portrayed in media ever? Damn miracle. I can discuss media representation in another post, but for now let me just discuss the representation in Butterfly Soup, because I relate to and love every single one of them. Here is a list of similarities between me and the characters:
Diya:
- Extremely shy
- Content to sit near louder friends and listen to them talk instead of joining in
- Have a morning routine of lying in bed for ten minutes being tired
- Avoid confrontation like the plague
- Hearing problems. I can’t actually claim this, I’m just bad at auditory processing
- Weak immune systems from sleep deprivation
- Don’t talk to parents much because everything becomes a lecture or criticism
- Male-dominated interests that people just have to comment on
Min-seo:
- Likes weapons, should not be using them (for different reasons)
- Loves Diya
- Short hair
- Short
- Tiny hands
- Emo music
- Uncomfortable doing “girly” things, has rejected gender roles since child
- Parents disapprove of said rejections
- Kind of dumb sometimes
- Uses profanity incorrectly
- Hates most vegetables, salad, and standalone tomatoes
Akarsha:
- Extremely weird
- Says things that don’t make sense
- Is the “annoying” and “ugly” one in the friend group
- Forgets to return things
- Parents excessively brag about intelligence
- Doesn’t feel smart
- Stressed out and feels pressured by parents, copes by making jokes
- Feels lost, doesn’t mind dying
- Accidentally killed a small animal in elementary school
- Likes junk food
Noelle:
- Parental expectations
- Too weak to open water bottles
- Bad at sports
- Not very social
- Takes a long time to get to really know and consider interesting
- Likes classical music
- Appreciates math (!!!)
- Weak immune systems from sleep deprivation
In general there was just so much to relate to, especially with the Asian American household experience – the traditional and conservative values, the insane pressure from parents to be successful, the unspoken culture of getting hit, the smart-but-not-smart-enough kids at the bottom of the top, the generational gap in the experiences of Asian parents and children in the U.S., and the distance that creates. Other than that, the game references real gender-related experiences I’ve had as a female with non-feminine interests and behavior. And the game manages to deal with all this while being extremely funny.
Anything else I think of will be added later. Nevertheless, Butterfly Soup is an amazing game that I would recommend to anyone even remotely gay, female, or Asian. You can download it here for free, but honestly, please donate if you can because she deserves it! I wanted to donate so bad, but my dad can see everything I do with my credit card, so please, someone donate for me! Because if there’s any game I’d pay to play, this would be the one.
Essay: Distortion (‘Metamorphosis’ Timed Write)
In the story “The Metamorphosis” by Franz Kafka, Kafka distorts Gregor’s voice, body, and behavior to show how the modern worker’s obsession with work can lead to isolation.
Kafka first distorts Gregor’s body in order to demonstrate how one’s obsession with their job isolates one from their sense of self. When Gregor discovers his new body, he “saw his little legs struggling with each other more fiercely than ever, if that were possible, and saw no way of bringing peace and order to this mindless motion” (16). Kafka’s diction of “mindless motion” describes how Gregor considers his work to be “mindless”, as though his own mind is not put to use in his job. His inability to bring “peace and order” to this motion illustrates the lack of control Gregor has in his life and in his job. His own legs, which are supposed to carry him and take him where he wants to go, are out of control and useless, further symbolizing Gregor’s inability to support himself and take his life in the direction he desires. This lack of control, self-sustainability, and direction in Gregor’s life, along with his mind being wasted in his job, all help strip away Gregor’s individuality, potential, ambition, and thoughts, thus conveying the isolation from sense of self that can be caused from working too hard.
Gregor’s voice is also distorted in order to illustrate how lack of communication can lead to isolation from others. Upon conceiving the reactions of his family to his voice, Gregor realizes that “his words were no longer intelligible even though they seemed clear enough to him, clearer than before, perhaps because his ear had grown accustomed to them” (25). Due to his dedication to his work, Gregor rarely has time to have real conversations with his parents and his sister; when he finally has a need to communicate, his words are “no longer intelligible” from lack of previous communication. However, his words are “clearer than before” to Gregor himself, because he has become “accustomed” to his state of non-communication, to his work that took away his humanity and livelihood so that he no longer sounds human to his family. Work, as it had done to Gregor, can rob one of continual communication with their loved ones from whom they will thus be isolated.
Another aspect of Gregor that is distorted is his behavior; by distorting this aspect, Kafka demonstrates how working to please others causes one to abandon their own needs and isolate themselves further. When Gregor tries to get out of bed in the morning, “he no longer paid any attention to the pain in his abdomen, however it burned” (24). His abdomen, which has been in severe pain for a long while by this point, is ignored by Gregor as he attempts to get up even though the logical response is to treat the pain. Gregor is so desperate to get to his job that his basic health needs are disregarded, exemplifying how the modern worker’s personal needs will be overlooked in their desire to please their boss and support their family financially. Later on in the story, Gregor realizes his sister is repulsed by his appearance and “one day carried the sheet to the sofa on his back… and arranged it in such a way that he was now completely covered and his sister would not be able to see him” (51). Covering himself with the sheet to spare his sister the view of his transformed body is a quintessential example of isolating oneself to please others, as Gregor is purposefully using the sheet to create a barrier between himself and his family, believing it will help his sister despite sacrificing his own need for love and recognition. This action also represents how Gregor throws himself into work in order to support his family, and thus distances himself in the meantime, believing it to be the best for his family. Gregor ignoring the pain in his abdomen in favor of getting ready for work, as well as blocking his sister from himself, contribute to the idea of the desire to please others causes one to neglect one’s personal needs and isolate themselves.
The distortion of Gregor’s body, voice, and behavior in “The Metamorphosis” helps illustrate how the modern worker’s obsession of work, which comes with a lack of communication, lack of control and vitality, and a desire to please others, will lead to isolation from others as well as their own needs and identity. While having a job is important, it is essential for workers to maintain a happy, healthy relationship with their loved ones, and to hold on to their own lives and ensure they don’t lose their sense of selves.